Another long post~~~

I just realised that I've typed out the previous entry in English. Hmmm.. Why ah? And I can't imagine letting my mom read it. Heehehe.. Malu ah nak feeling2 ni..
But I will let her read it one day..

Hub said the other day that he had developed an application for his company and it will be patented under his name. Which means a lawyer will have to be there and hub will have to sign some documents to say that no one can copy/make use of it without his permission. Gee.. It all sound sooooooo grown-up.. Hahahaha..

I feel so damn proud of him! He have went a long way to be where he is right now and he's not even a poly graduate. ;p~

Now moving on to something else..
Here's a lyric that I want to share..

Depeche Mode - Somebody

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
And in a place like this
I'll get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....

Beautiful lyric but the song is hideous.. Well, this is my opinion.. Sorry if I've offended any Depeche Mode fans out there.
Anyway, when I was a kid, I found one of my neighbour's portfolio in my brother's cupboard. She wrote this lyric on the front page in gorgeous cursive handwriting and it made quite an impression on me. And it kinda made me want to be the woman described in that song. Lol! And I was only a kid, mind you..
I want to be someone who will listen to other people's views but will not be swayed nor converted. (Some people might misunderstood it as being stubborn)
I want to be able to hear my friends' deepest, darkest secrets.. no matter how perverted, skewed or sick and I would never judge them for it.
I want to be able to hold my own views on some things and will stand up for whatever I strongly believe in. (Even though I got into a lot of trouble in the past because of this)

Some men can't stand to be in the company of a woman who are more confident, intelligent and educated than them. And some of the elders think that it's such a waste of time & money to educate girls because they are going to end up cooking & cleaning for their husbands. Arrrghhh..!

I am glad that my mom don't think like these people. She's the one who encouraged me to finish my studies and to go on continuing it instead of just being content with what I have right now. Being uneducated herself, she had experienced first hand of how difficult life can be without education. I admire how she pushed herself to take up massage lessons even when she was faced with a lot of obstacles and objections from the people around her. One of her advice to me was,
'Don't rely 100% on people around you. Even family members. They might turn around and refuse to help you when you are in need. Learn to stand on your own 2 feet and learn to take initiatives instead of waiting around for help that will never come. This is where a solid education will be useful to you. '

Of course she said it in Malay and I also don't remember her exact words. Heehee.. ;p~
My dad also supports her views on this and worked really hard to provide money for our educations.

A few months ago, I heard from a nenek (not related to me lah), who had offended me tremendously by saying, 'Nenek cakap jgn marah eh? Anak dara zaman dulu tak macam sekarang. Dorang dulu bleh masak, jahit baju, kemas rumah.. Tak kluar rumah merayap.... '
I was so pissed off and I nearly screamed at her ---> 'HALLO NENEK! SAYA CAKAP JGN MARAH OK! ANAK DARA ZAMAN DULU BOLEH PROGRAM C++ TAK? BOLEH BAWAK KENDERAAN TAK? BOLEH REPAIR COMPUTER TAK? BOLEH DESIGN WEBSITE TAK?!!

Instead, I just said,'Dulu lain nek, tak boleh samakan dengan sekarang. Polis sekarang mana ada pakai seluar pendek lagi..'
She didn't look very happy with my reply but we changed the topic to something else.

Sigh..

I don't know why I was so angry with her. I know she can't be blamed because she came from a different generation where women will stay at home, do housework and are content with a basic education in school. After they find a suitable candidate for a husband, they will get married, be a housewife and a mother.

I think I have to explain why I don't know how to sew and why my cooking skills are limited.
From the time I was 5 years old, I was sent to school. This will continue on and on till I graduate. Then after I graduated, I went on to get a job and work till I die.. Where got time to learn all those skills that the previous generations have prided themselves to master? Like sewing, I don't see the need to invest my energy in it when I buy clothes off the rack.. No doubt, I can still repair torn shirts or whatever.. But to learn how to sew an impressive set of curtains for the house?.. No thank you. I can pay someone to do it for me. Ya, I know I can save loads of money by doing it myself but let me say this to you --> You can always earn back the money that you've lost. But how about time, darling?

With the time that I've saved by paying someone else to do it for me, I can do so many other things that I'll enjoy. Heh..

Oklah.. I'll end my post now..

Gee.. I don't know how I can type out such a long boring post.. and at work some more.. Hehehe..