A rant from an emotionally-charged pregnant woman..

Bear with me.. This is just a rant from an emotionally-charged pregnant woman..

To a certain someone.. I know that you are a regular reader of my blog, that is why I decided to place my thoughts in here..

If you've noticed, I've been distancing myself from you. I can't seem to help myself, knowing that in less than 2 weeks time, you are going to terminate your pregnancy. I just have this feeling of resentment towards you right now that I really really can't control. Blame it on the hormones, if you want. I even cried on the day that you told me about your decision and had nightmares about losing my own baby. :`(
Remember I told you about my wayward girlfriend who aborted her babies and confided in me? I am not a judgmental person. She's still my friend but there will be times that I wonder to myself, "What the heck is wrong with her?" and feel like giving her a tight slap. But since I don't see her on a regular basis, it kinda make it easier for me. On the other hand, I see you almost everyday. My heart will just break, seeing you staring aimlessly and unconsciously caressing your belly. You have this sad look on your face and it made me feel so crappy.

Sigh~

If my calculation is correct, your baby would be almost 2 mths by then and his/her heart would have already started beating.

It's not my intention to make you feel even worst at this moment since you really wanted to keep the baby but your hubby was the one who is against it. After asking around, I was told that if a husband forced a wife to do something that is against Islam, the wife have the right NOT to listen to him and it's not counted as a sin.

Every child that Allah bestowed upon us is a gift that we should treasure it. In my opinion, if you don't want to be pregnant, then protect yourself with contraceptives. If you ARE using contraceptives, and STILL conceive, then say "Alhamdulillah! Allah has decided to bless me with this baby.."

Who are we to play GOD and decide the faith of the baby by killing it??!!

For me, the only reason why a pregnancy can be aborted is when the mother's health is at risk or the baby has serious abnormalities (e.g. without a head/heart). Other than that, it's just an excuse from the parents for being irresponsible. Whatever it is, dearie~ you will be reunited with your baby on judgment day and you will be questioned. I have no doubt about that~

I've already told you not to worry about financial problem because Allah will surely provide. Setiap anak tu ada rezeki dia sendiri..

Oh well.. Suka hati kau lah, nak.. Kau pun dah besar panjang..

C'est La Vie~! That's Life..
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A brief update on the little gymnast living in my belly :

My baby is soooooooooooo active nowadays.. tickling me from the inside and making me chuckle by myself every now and then. My tummy can now move by itself and I now look visibly pregnant.. So many of my new colleagues love to touch my tummy. One of them is so lucky to have felt the baby move. It's the best feeling in the world.. I can tell that hubby is very jealous of me right now.. Heh.. He kept touching my belly and wants to know where the head is.. or the baby is in which position.. Heehee.. It's not as if I know, right? Duh~

I feel so blessed nowadays. Alhamdulillah.. I've been transferred to a less stressful environment with a lovely group of people. I have a cool and flexible team leader who gave us a treat yesterday at Kampung Chai Chee restaurant.. Mmmm.. Butter prawns.. * Droolz *
Strangers has been treating me extra nice once they saw my bulging tummy by offering their seats or opening doors for me. Best kan? There was one time, I boarded a crowded bus and was feeling rather sickly. There was this nice gentleman who quickly offered me his seat at once when he saw me, just as I was about to faint. I think it was because of the low blood count that causes me to see stars nowadays.

Current Cravings : Doner Sandwich from Anatolia Turkish Restaurant (Far East Plaza). Been bugging hubby to bring me there since last week.. :(