I am fat.. but you're ugly.. and I can diet..

I know there's a flaw on the above statement. Coz I can imagine the person will retort back with 'There's such thing as plastic surgery, you know?'... *rofl*

I mean, so what if  you are skinny? Are you putting me down so that you can feel better about yourself?

And whatever happen to being voluptuously sexy? Curves in the right places? Remember black & white movies used to show sex sirens with hourglass silhouettes?  The kind that men used to drool after? Marilyn Monroe, Normadiah, Saloma used to grace our TV sets with their tight-fitting dress, figure hugging kebayas that flaunted their assets. Teenage girls aspired to be like them. What happen to all that?

And look at Salma Hayek, see how NOT skinny she look? (Some folks would probably call her fat.. But I have lots of male friends who adore her..)

Or you can google out Monica Belucci..

Anyway, let me define myself. I am not FAT. I am rubenesque (go check that word out in a dictionary). My BMI index is NORMAL which means I am a healthy and NORMAL woman. You skinny people are the ones who should be ashame of yourself for being abnormal. Hahaha.. Just kidding! Besides, I have big bone. When I starve myself to lose weight, I will look gaunt and unhealthy with bones sticking out of my body. Believe me, I've been there and done that. Just take a look at my wedding pictures. I was at my skinniest. My cheeks were sunken in and pale, feeling tired and faint all the time because of the lack of food and I was always sick. The reason for me to go through all that misery? To ensure that I can fit into my wedding costumes. I was such a silly girl. ;p~

Even Azmi was very unhappy about it at that time. Perhaps that was why he kept putting food into my plate after we are married. Or insisted that we eat heavy meals after 10pm. *chuckles* So at that time when I put on weight and people commented on me, my usual reply was, 'Aku gemok pasal laki aku kasi aku makan banyak2'  LOL! Alhamdulillah! I am blessed to have such a loving husband who doesn't have a skewed perspective of beauty. Whenever I confided in him that so and so called me fat, he laughed out loud and pointed out the flaws in that person's character or physical appearance to cheer me up. For e.g, 'At least your mouth doesn't smell as bad as his!'..

I used to ask myself why I can't look like Kate Moss. You know, waif-like, very fragile-looking little thing. Then I realised, human being comes in all sizes.. Like big bone, broad shoulder, small waisted (aka hourglass), pear shaped, ruler shaped, etc etc.. So due to my big bone structure, if I were work out like crazy, I'll probably end-up looking like the Amazon women. Heh.

I worry for my daughter's self-esteem in the future. Already, there are so many people saying that she's fat or she's going to be fat when she grows up. They poke fun at her and she's only 8 months old. *roll eyes*

Judging from the comments that I've gotten from this website ---> http://www.bfdblog.com/page/3/

'Forty-two percent of girls ages 13-17 and 27 percent of women ages 35-49 answered they would rather be thin and stupid than overweight and smart.'

I can't help but wonder.. Will Alysha be able to take all the ridicules, rude comments and crude fat jokes if she turns out to be overweight in the future. As I've said in my previous post, I love chubby babies. Before I had a Alysha, I was always looking forward to meet Huda (Along's fourth daughter) coz she was such a cute, chubby baby! I love to take a deep sniff on their neck and hair. The smell is simply awesome! Alas~~~ my chubby Alysha had lost some of her chubbiness due to her being so active. Tapi pipi tetap maintain.. Hehehehe.. Oh darling, ibu misses you so much. Can't wait to fly back home..

Judging Ayu..

This is for a certain someone..

Some people thought that they are wise enough to judge me after knowing me for a short period of time. Hah! Even my bestfriends who had known me for almost 15 years, barely scratched the surface.. same goes to my hubby who had known me for almost 10 years.

A few years ago, someone called me an enigma. I am not sure if that counts as a compliment or an insult but I am sure it is true since it came out from the mouth of a very wise old man.

So... Darling, I can only say this to you.. --> There are so many things about me that you don't know. I doubt if you even WANT to know. Therefore you can stop being such a 'know-it-all' and stop spewing things about me coz you do not have a clue of who I am. You are just making a fool of yourself. You are still young, you have lots to learn.. and judging a book just by it's cover can only get you into trouble. Open up your mind.. Go and explore the world. And then you will realise that you are just being childish and silly.

:P~

What does 'Gedegeng' means, Alysha?

Watch the video with the volume on..

Seriously, what does it mean?

And why is it so funny?

Why oh WHY!!! The suspense is killing me..

Precious moments..

 

Yo what's up~

 

Another nice picture of the 3 of us..

So serene.. So peaceful.. This is what you call 'Calm before the storm' moments.. Which means 'a peaceful and quiet period before a period of activity or trouble.' Hahaha.. Get the drift?

Caught in the act~
She gets super excited whenever we set up the laptop on the bed.. or when we were surfing the Internet on the desktop. Check out the video below..

 

Alysha and Pak Bucu aka '5 mins Babysitter'

Probably thinking of something mischievous to do..

Here I am again..

I am in a new working environment.. AGAIN! Hahaha..

There goes my plan to be a SAHM. But Alhamdulillah my new workplace is like a million times much better than my previous one. Nah.. I am not exaggerating at all. It's true! I can list out the comparisons BUT I don't want to be sued by TDS. Bleah~

It was so unplanned. I just submitted my resume after my resignation from TDS and thought that it will be a few months before anyone would call me since everyone around me were having problem looking for a new job.

So you can imagine my surprise when I got a call to attend an interview. Followed by a second interview and negotiating of my current salary. I was quite adamant that my salary cannot fall below the 'Expected' salary range and was quite prepared to walk away empty-handed but *gasp*.. They offered an even HIGHER salary than what I had expected!! After that interview, I walked out of the room, feeling a little shaken.. Hahaha.. I thought I had dreamt it all. Can't believe that I am earning more than my own TL. Hahahahahahaha.. Sweeeeeeeeeeet~!

So here I am.. Finally earning good $$ based on my work qualification and experience. No more working for cheapskate local companies with ridiculous company policies. Yay!

No more rushing through stupid 45 mins lunches! I don't get penalised when I am late for even 1 minute. I don't have to put up with petty office politics, emotional/sensitive colleagues, backstabbers, two-faced bootlickers and malicious gossipers. And there's wider varieties of food for lunch.. On Mon, Wed and Fri, there are a few free shuttle buses that will take us to and fro Bedok Central for lunch. And then on Tues and Thurs, that same shuttle service will take us to Simei Eastpoint. So my lunch is not only limited to Nasi Padang, Mamak food and fast food deliveries. ;p~

The only thing that I miss from TDS are my friends!! Siti, Ramon, Debbie, Naz and Fizah.. These are the people who made my stay there bearable and I miss them all! *sob* *sob* Just hang on there people. Don't hate me for abandoning the TDS ship.. Hehehe..

Okay............

So many things are happening now. We got the key to our very own flat in Thomson. Will be moving there soon, hopefully before the fasting month. We will be living on our own. Yay! Nor will probably be coming along with us. Alysha will have her own room! I have MY VERY OWN KITCHEN!! Can't wait!!!

And.............

I finally passed my driving test and got the coveted driving license. Yay!

About my lil chubby cheeks..

From her last check up, she is already 8 kg. She can crawl forward and from sitting position. Dah macam ulat nangka because she can't sit still.

I can see from her hands and thighs that she had lost some of her baby fats. :( Maybe because she's very active, terrorising our lives with her laughable antics and are more interested in playing than drinking her milk or eating her meals. I've always love chubby babies and I can't thank Allah enough for giving me Alysha. Syukur Alhamdulillah!!

She's a joy to be with and filled my life with so much happiness, fun and laughter. It's been a tiring journey but I am enjoying every minute of being a mother..

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