I am fat.. but you're ugly.. and I can diet..

I know there's a flaw on the above statement. Coz I can imagine the person will retort back with 'There's such thing as plastic surgery, you know?'... *rofl*

I mean, so what if  you are skinny? Are you putting me down so that you can feel better about yourself?

And whatever happen to being voluptuously sexy? Curves in the right places? Remember black & white movies used to show sex sirens with hourglass silhouettes?  The kind that men used to drool after? Marilyn Monroe, Normadiah, Saloma used to grace our TV sets with their tight-fitting dress, figure hugging kebayas that flaunted their assets. Teenage girls aspired to be like them. What happen to all that?

And look at Salma Hayek, see how NOT skinny she look? (Some folks would probably call her fat.. But I have lots of male friends who adore her..)

Or you can google out Monica Belucci..

Anyway, let me define myself. I am not FAT. I am rubenesque (go check that word out in a dictionary). My BMI index is NORMAL which means I am a healthy and NORMAL woman. You skinny people are the ones who should be ashame of yourself for being abnormal. Hahaha.. Just kidding! Besides, I have big bone. When I starve myself to lose weight, I will look gaunt and unhealthy with bones sticking out of my body. Believe me, I've been there and done that. Just take a look at my wedding pictures. I was at my skinniest. My cheeks were sunken in and pale, feeling tired and faint all the time because of the lack of food and I was always sick. The reason for me to go through all that misery? To ensure that I can fit into my wedding costumes. I was such a silly girl. ;p~

Even Azmi was very unhappy about it at that time. Perhaps that was why he kept putting food into my plate after we are married. Or insisted that we eat heavy meals after 10pm. *chuckles* So at that time when I put on weight and people commented on me, my usual reply was, 'Aku gemok pasal laki aku kasi aku makan banyak2'  LOL! Alhamdulillah! I am blessed to have such a loving husband who doesn't have a skewed perspective of beauty. Whenever I confided in him that so and so called me fat, he laughed out loud and pointed out the flaws in that person's character or physical appearance to cheer me up. For e.g, 'At least your mouth doesn't smell as bad as his!'..

I used to ask myself why I can't look like Kate Moss. You know, waif-like, very fragile-looking little thing. Then I realised, human being comes in all sizes.. Like big bone, broad shoulder, small waisted (aka hourglass), pear shaped, ruler shaped, etc etc.. So due to my big bone structure, if I were work out like crazy, I'll probably end-up looking like the Amazon women. Heh.

I worry for my daughter's self-esteem in the future. Already, there are so many people saying that she's fat or she's going to be fat when she grows up. They poke fun at her and she's only 8 months old. *roll eyes*

Judging from the comments that I've gotten from this website ---> http://www.bfdblog.com/page/3/

'Forty-two percent of girls ages 13-17 and 27 percent of women ages 35-49 answered they would rather be thin and stupid than overweight and smart.'

I can't help but wonder.. Will Alysha be able to take all the ridicules, rude comments and crude fat jokes if she turns out to be overweight in the future. As I've said in my previous post, I love chubby babies. Before I had a Alysha, I was always looking forward to meet Huda (Along's fourth daughter) coz she was such a cute, chubby baby! I love to take a deep sniff on their neck and hair. The smell is simply awesome! Alas~~~ my chubby Alysha had lost some of her chubbiness due to her being so active. Tapi pipi tetap maintain.. Hehehehe.. Oh darling, ibu misses you so much. Can't wait to fly back home..