What if..

A few nights ago, I asked Azmi, 'What if I gave birth to Alsyha in a remote kampung last year? I could have died!'

Then I jokingly added, 'And become a pontianak.. ' Because I can't stand the look of his face when I asked him that. Hehe..

You see.. A friend of mine, Shamsaath, gave birth to a beautiful son last month.

When we (Suba was there too) came for a visit, she relate her labour stories to all of us. There was a part when the topic was about epidural (coz Sham was saying that she didn't take it.. Hurray for her!) and someone chipped in and said 'It's all mind over body..' As if we asked for his opinion. Bleah~

Note : All the pictures that was taken by hubby during this visit are all blurry, so no pictures are available...

I can't stop thinking about this. Again and again, the image of me lying there on the bed, thrashing and praying as the pain just kept on coming every minute.. Willing myself not to give in and take the dreaded epidural injection.

Then the midwife came and told me that the baby is in distress and that I have to go through emergency c-section if my cervix refuse to open. She advised me to take the epidural injection as the last resort.. 

So there you go.. If on 23rd October 2007, I were to 'mind over body' and refuse to take that injection, I would have a scar on my tummy right now. Even worst, if I were to give birth a 100 years ago, I could have died because of my non-cooperative cervix, the midwife have to cut open my tummy to save my baby and my hubby will have to re-marry. To think that the 'mind over body' comment comes from a man who have never given birth before is completely and utterly insensitive. You are lucky that you are not my hubby coz you'll never hear the end of it.. Lol~