I am fat.. but you're ugly.. and I can diet..

I know there's a flaw on the above statement. Coz I can imagine the person will retort back with 'There's such thing as plastic surgery, you know?'... *rofl*

I mean, so what if  you are skinny? Are you putting me down so that you can feel better about yourself?

And whatever happen to being voluptuously sexy? Curves in the right places? Remember black & white movies used to show sex sirens with hourglass silhouettes?  The kind that men used to drool after? Marilyn Monroe, Normadiah, Saloma used to grace our TV sets with their tight-fitting dress, figure hugging kebayas that flaunted their assets. Teenage girls aspired to be like them. What happen to all that?

And look at Salma Hayek, see how NOT skinny she look? (Some folks would probably call her fat.. But I have lots of male friends who adore her..)

Or you can google out Monica Belucci..

Anyway, let me define myself. I am not FAT. I am rubenesque (go check that word out in a dictionary). My BMI index is NORMAL which means I am a healthy and NORMAL woman. You skinny people are the ones who should be ashame of yourself for being abnormal. Hahaha.. Just kidding! Besides, I have big bone. When I starve myself to lose weight, I will look gaunt and unhealthy with bones sticking out of my body. Believe me, I've been there and done that. Just take a look at my wedding pictures. I was at my skinniest. My cheeks were sunken in and pale, feeling tired and faint all the time because of the lack of food and I was always sick. The reason for me to go through all that misery? To ensure that I can fit into my wedding costumes. I was such a silly girl. ;p~

Even Azmi was very unhappy about it at that time. Perhaps that was why he kept putting food into my plate after we are married. Or insisted that we eat heavy meals after 10pm. *chuckles* So at that time when I put on weight and people commented on me, my usual reply was, 'Aku gemok pasal laki aku kasi aku makan banyak2'  LOL! Alhamdulillah! I am blessed to have such a loving husband who doesn't have a skewed perspective of beauty. Whenever I confided in him that so and so called me fat, he laughed out loud and pointed out the flaws in that person's character or physical appearance to cheer me up. For e.g, 'At least your mouth doesn't smell as bad as his!'..

I used to ask myself why I can't look like Kate Moss. You know, waif-like, very fragile-looking little thing. Then I realised, human being comes in all sizes.. Like big bone, broad shoulder, small waisted (aka hourglass), pear shaped, ruler shaped, etc etc.. So due to my big bone structure, if I were work out like crazy, I'll probably end-up looking like the Amazon women. Heh.

I worry for my daughter's self-esteem in the future. Already, there are so many people saying that she's fat or she's going to be fat when she grows up. They poke fun at her and she's only 8 months old. *roll eyes*

Judging from the comments that I've gotten from this website ---> http://www.bfdblog.com/page/3/

'Forty-two percent of girls ages 13-17 and 27 percent of women ages 35-49 answered they would rather be thin and stupid than overweight and smart.'

I can't help but wonder.. Will Alysha be able to take all the ridicules, rude comments and crude fat jokes if she turns out to be overweight in the future. As I've said in my previous post, I love chubby babies. Before I had a Alysha, I was always looking forward to meet Huda (Along's fourth daughter) coz she was such a cute, chubby baby! I love to take a deep sniff on their neck and hair. The smell is simply awesome! Alas~~~ my chubby Alysha had lost some of her chubbiness due to her being so active. Tapi pipi tetap maintain.. Hehehehe.. Oh darling, ibu misses you so much. Can't wait to fly back home..

Judging Ayu..

This is for a certain someone..

Some people thought that they are wise enough to judge me after knowing me for a short period of time. Hah! Even my bestfriends who had known me for almost 15 years, barely scratched the surface.. same goes to my hubby who had known me for almost 10 years.

A few years ago, someone called me an enigma. I am not sure if that counts as a compliment or an insult but I am sure it is true since it came out from the mouth of a very wise old man.

So... Darling, I can only say this to you.. --> There are so many things about me that you don't know. I doubt if you even WANT to know. Therefore you can stop being such a 'know-it-all' and stop spewing things about me coz you do not have a clue of who I am. You are just making a fool of yourself. You are still young, you have lots to learn.. and judging a book just by it's cover can only get you into trouble. Open up your mind.. Go and explore the world. And then you will realise that you are just being childish and silly.

:P~

What does 'Gedegeng' means, Alysha?

Watch the video with the volume on..

Seriously, what does it mean?

And why is it so funny?

Why oh WHY!!! The suspense is killing me..

Precious moments..

 

Yo what's up~

 

Another nice picture of the 3 of us..

So serene.. So peaceful.. This is what you call 'Calm before the storm' moments.. Which means 'a peaceful and quiet period before a period of activity or trouble.' Hahaha.. Get the drift?

Caught in the act~
She gets super excited whenever we set up the laptop on the bed.. or when we were surfing the Internet on the desktop. Check out the video below..

 

Alysha and Pak Bucu aka '5 mins Babysitter'

Probably thinking of something mischievous to do..

Here I am again..

I am in a new working environment.. AGAIN! Hahaha..

There goes my plan to be a SAHM. But Alhamdulillah my new workplace is like a million times much better than my previous one. Nah.. I am not exaggerating at all. It's true! I can list out the comparisons BUT I don't want to be sued by TDS. Bleah~

It was so unplanned. I just submitted my resume after my resignation from TDS and thought that it will be a few months before anyone would call me since everyone around me were having problem looking for a new job.

So you can imagine my surprise when I got a call to attend an interview. Followed by a second interview and negotiating of my current salary. I was quite adamant that my salary cannot fall below the 'Expected' salary range and was quite prepared to walk away empty-handed but *gasp*.. They offered an even HIGHER salary than what I had expected!! After that interview, I walked out of the room, feeling a little shaken.. Hahaha.. I thought I had dreamt it all. Can't believe that I am earning more than my own TL. Hahahahahahaha.. Sweeeeeeeeeeet~!

So here I am.. Finally earning good $$ based on my work qualification and experience. No more working for cheapskate local companies with ridiculous company policies. Yay!

No more rushing through stupid 45 mins lunches! I don't get penalised when I am late for even 1 minute. I don't have to put up with petty office politics, emotional/sensitive colleagues, backstabbers, two-faced bootlickers and malicious gossipers. And there's wider varieties of food for lunch.. On Mon, Wed and Fri, there are a few free shuttle buses that will take us to and fro Bedok Central for lunch. And then on Tues and Thurs, that same shuttle service will take us to Simei Eastpoint. So my lunch is not only limited to Nasi Padang, Mamak food and fast food deliveries. ;p~

The only thing that I miss from TDS are my friends!! Siti, Ramon, Debbie, Naz and Fizah.. These are the people who made my stay there bearable and I miss them all! *sob* *sob* Just hang on there people. Don't hate me for abandoning the TDS ship.. Hehehe..

Okay............

So many things are happening now. We got the key to our very own flat in Thomson. Will be moving there soon, hopefully before the fasting month. We will be living on our own. Yay! Nor will probably be coming along with us. Alysha will have her own room! I have MY VERY OWN KITCHEN!! Can't wait!!!

And.............

I finally passed my driving test and got the coveted driving license. Yay!

About my lil chubby cheeks..

From her last check up, she is already 8 kg. She can crawl forward and from sitting position. Dah macam ulat nangka because she can't sit still.

I can see from her hands and thighs that she had lost some of her baby fats. :( Maybe because she's very active, terrorising our lives with her laughable antics and are more interested in playing than drinking her milk or eating her meals. I've always love chubby babies and I can't thank Allah enough for giving me Alysha. Syukur Alhamdulillah!!

She's a joy to be with and filled my life with so much happiness, fun and laughter. It's been a tiring journey but I am enjoying every minute of being a mother..

Testing!

Testing!

Blah blah blah..

** bang head on table **

Sigh..

There are so many things that I want to talk about.. But my lips are sealed..

Bottling up all my feelings.. One day I might just explode and say things that will hurt the people who I care about..

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....................

Let me just shout out something..

YOU OWE US MONEY!!! WHY ISSIT SO DIFFICULT FOR YOU TO PAY US BACK???

WHY??!! WHY??!! WHY??!!

WHY MUST WE KEEP CHASING YOU FOR IT???!!!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHH!!!

It's so F&^*ing frustrating to keep hearing lame excuses from you day after day after day..

This had been a very expensive lesson for me and Azmi.. Be rest assured that we've learnt NOT to lend money to people..

Once bitten., twice shy..

Alysha's 1st trip to the zoo..

We got free tickets to the zoo.. thanks to Abg Ngah..

Well.. It wasn't as exciting as I thought it will be. Alysha slept half the time when we were there.. ;p~ and it started to rain very heavily at 2pm so we decided to pack up and leave.. 

Some pics that we manage to snap before it started pouring..

Awww.. she looked shoooooooo shweeeet..








Curious lil girl..







This is a priceless picture of Pak Busu next to Inuka the polar bear.. Hehehe..






It's waaaaaaaaay past her nap time and she started to get cranky..



When she's back home..

Laughing Fart..

Hehehe..  Wanna know why I call her that? Coz whenever she farts, it is kinda loud (Yeah I know.. So unladylike.. ;p~) and when we tease her about it, she will laugh cheekily..

Here's a video of my lil farting pwincess..



another one..



And here is an embarrassing naked photo of her.. Hehehe..

Ok ok.. enough of that.. 

We went to a relative's wedding last Sunday and met up with so many people that I have not met in almost a decade.. Manage to introduce Azmi to these people although I was having difficulties with their names.. Bleah~

Anyway, we manage to take picture together.. This is one rare moment when it satisfy all these criteria
- I look good
- Azmi look good
- Alysha look good
- We are outside looking good as a family
And someone is there to snap a picture of us..

But Alysha refused to cooperate and looked at everywhere else instead of at the camera..

Look at the camera, darling..



Come on sweetheart.. look at Ayah holding the camera..



And when she finally looked at the camera, her facial expression is priceless..



She looked as if she's gonna dig out your eyes and have it as a pacifier..

Garangnyer anak ibu..

Alysha Nadya @ 3 months 3 weeks and 3 days old..

Ta da~~~.........


Hehehe.. Cute?

She can now roll on her tummy! Yay~ And her laughter! Ya Allah~.. It's the purest sound ever! The first time I heard her laughed out loud, I nearly peed in my pants..

Such joy.. such happiness..

And now Azmi and I can't seem to get enough of it. It's like an addictive drug that we keep asking for more and more.. It's a good thing that Alysha's been dispensing it freely.. 
Hehehehe.. 






It's hard to take a non-blurry picture of her now, unless when she's sleeping.
My lil chubby cheeks is always on the move and she can't keep still for a few seconds. So here are the few rare moments of her posing for the camera..




Some thoughtful pose.. Hmm...

2026 Featherweight Boxing Champion..

Float like a butterfly.. Sting like a bee..



Caught my lil babe trying out her punching moves..

Anak Ayah~

She simply adores her father.. Hmmphh! I can't help feeling jealous sometimes especially since it was me who's doing all the dirty jobs like changing her diaper, bathing and feeding her. Now that I've started bottlefeeding her, Azmi gets to feed her as well.. Yay! 

Whenever her father comes home from work in the evening and she hears his voice, 
she will become very excited and start kicking her legs while turning 
her head this way and that, trying to find him. 

Some beautiful father-daughter moments..









I will be getting back to work tomorrow. Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~!!!!

Stress Reliever II

Specially for Subathra..

........................ who wanted to see the picture of an extremely pregnant and bloated me......

Ta da~~~

Baby Alysha @ 1 month, 2 weeks and 4 days old..

Chubby Cheeks latest development :

- She's very vocal during nursing. It's like she's grumbling about something in between swallowing the milk. I can imagine her saying, 'See lah Ibu.. Who ask you to eat assam pedas just now? Your milk taste spicy, you know. I don't like.' or 'Mmm.. 
Did you just ate Oreo just now? You shouldn't eat so much junk food. Later become fat, then how?' or 'Where's Ayah? Why he always disappear in the morning 
and come back in the evening? Can you turn off the air-con? It's freezing!' Hehehhe.. Grumble grumble grumble..

- Loves sticking out her tongue. And like to engage us in a one-sided conversation. She doesn't talk much when she's not nursing 
although I can see her trying to move her mouth to copy our 
mouth movement.

- She loves to be placed on her tummy. Then she will hold her head up all by herself. I am so proud! But not for long.. After a while, she will get tired and lay her head down on one side and look at me with her pityful face.. Heh.. MIL said that Alysha would sleep for a longer period if I let her sleep on her tummy but I wouldn't dream of doing that when she's still so young. Perhaps when she can roll on her own.

- Making her go to sleep is easy when we cuddle her in our arms. It's when we tried to put her down on her bed. Now THAT's the challenging part! Hubby had been comparing it to 'like detonating a bomb'.. It's a very tricky maneuver and has to be done skillfully. Once her body touches the mattress, if she start squirming, wriggling and stretching then we have to do it all over again. Sometimes in the afternoon, I'll just let her sleep in my arms and I'll continue doing my stuffs (like typing this blog) using my other arm. Ya I know, I am spoiling my lil baby by doing that! ;p~

- Her smile! She loves to smile at me in the early hours in the morning when she wake me up for a feed. She'll give me that cheeky smile after she regurgitate her milk on my newly changed shirt or when she let out a poop or pee on my hand while changing her diaper.. Hai.. And sometimes, when she's alone, she'll smile and smile.. 
as if some invisible person is playing with her. Used to creep me out but now I am used to it. Well.. at least she's smiling and 
not screaming her lungs out. 
I ought to thank that invisible being for entertaining my daughter.. 
Hehehe.. 

- Loves her little froggy rattle. Whenever she's cranky, I use that rattle to distract her, albeit temporarily.. at least it helps..

- For someone who is so little, she can be quite strong. She'll put up quite a fight if you try to swaddle her when she's awake. And I really have to hold on to her when she's cranky coz 
she can really kick and throw her body to the back. 

- She's filling out quite nicely. Maybe too nicely. Hee.. Alhamdulillah. So many people loves her 'KFC' thighs.. Feel like biting it. 
And she has cellulite on her butt! Tsk tsk tsk.. 
It's only visible when she stretches her muscles while I am changing 
her diaper. 

Hmm.. what else eh? I guess that's it then..

You can stand under my umbrella..ella ella ella eh eh eh..

It's been raining almost everyday here in Ubi.. Feeling kinda down at the moment since I can't take Baby Alysha out for a walk..  Oh well.. We'll wait for this coming weekend and drag Ayah to the park.. Okie baby? Hehehe..

Oh ya.. Baby Alysha is officially a 'skinhead' now.. Here's a recent photo of Alysha with her new hairdo.. So bulat.. 
So cuteeeeeeeeee....





Anyway.. On to the title of today's post..
I've been hearing this song a lot of times and today is the 1st time I took the time and read the lyric. Decided to dedicate this song to my beloved hubby.. Muacks~! (Now that it's raining more than ever.. Know that we'll still have each other..)

You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
Maybe in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because

[Chorus]
When the sun shines, we’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

These fancy things, will never come in between
You're part of my entity, here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard, together we'll mend your heart
Because

[Chorus]

You can run into my arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
Come into me
There's no distance in between our love
So go on and let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
Because

[Chorus]

It's raining
Ooh baby it's raining
Baby come into me
Come into me
It's raining
Oh baby it's raining

Here's the music video of the song..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a4X7eFbP3u4

Government by taxation..

This is just sad.. :(

To conclude, the PAP has slipped, deliberately or unknowingly, into an unthinking mindset that automatically employs money as the main solution to all problems they encounter. If car ownership is too high, tax car ownership. If roads are too crowded, tax road use. If flat-building is limited, make flats expensive. If too many people want maids, tax them. If too many people smoke, tax cigarettes. If too many patients cancel their appointments at government hospitals, penalise them monetarily.

A nice little quote from the link below -> The state must be rich while the people must be poor..

http://i-came-i-saw-i-wrote-it.blogspot.com/search/label/Government%20by%20taxation

Merdeka!!

Today mark the last day of my pantang.. And Baby Alysha pun dah lepas hari..

Yay~! Dah bleh merayap!!!

Woah.. Anak ibu dah siap nak pergi mana tu??

My stress reliever..

Chubby cheeks..

Baby Alysha at 1 month old.. How time flies..

It felt like I just brought her home yesterday..

Take your time, sweetheart.. No rush..

Every moment is precious, how I wish that I can just be with her 24/7 and don't have to go to work.. 
To be there for her first laugh.. first crawl.. first step.. first word..

Sigh..